可以做的事

我知道我这个blog只是给我来写我心里想说的事情。。好多事情不想告诉任何人而且也不知道怎样告诉别人...发现自己变得很堕落之前上来KL做工为了其实只是希望可以用剩下的时间好好的跟她过...可是到了最后自己笨到，也不知道是自己笨还是真的太在意她过头或是什么

最终还是分手了...看见你在facebook写希望我可以放手让你自由...我看了心痛心痛不是因为分手而是因为看见..原来跟我在一起的这段时间让你那么的痛苦...我真的不忍心看见你那么痛苦...所以选择了放手让你快乐开心...过后做一些白痴事情...再过后的我选择堕落。。天天喝酒一个人静静的喝着酒觉得如果我醉了就不会难过结果...哈哈还是一样...2年多的感情我怎么可能放得下。。表面坚强也只是故意要给他知道我很好我没有让自己痛苦...只要她能够放心在AUS好好的读书什么都是值得的。。

刚在facebook看见通告有你post得爱心。。。当我去打开可是却已经被你洗掉了。。之前好像得到的东西出现在我眼前。。我又再一次留下了眼泪。。好像冲动的告诉你。。。我还是很爱你而且我在等你。。。等你出现在我眼前说一句。。。。。"其实我也很爱你"

最近在梦里总是梦见你在一个岛上一个人需要人家求救。。而我却在海上怎么游都游不到你身边最后我都是哭着醒来。。发现自己好没用没有好好保护你。。

好想大声地说"方珊珊!!!我就是爱你啊，不管世界再多人的反对我都是那么的爱你!"

现在的我放弃了工作做一些以前想做的工。。因为之前作的工作其实是为了你。想让你能够想买什么我都能买给你。。因为对我来说你比我自己还要来的重要。。

珊.....我一直还在这个岛上等你...等你一天回来...就算你是牵着另一个人的手幸福的微笑回来我都会感到很开心因为你是开心幸福的。。

我爱你。。。我还在等着。。。一直都在。。。

好久没有写Blog了.

好久没有写Blog了...可能不会有任何人来看...但是还是想把自己的心理话写出来给自己知道..

人在KL的我。。为了什么？(我傻笑)其实为了我的女朋友...因为可能再过几个月她就要出国读书了..很多人问我"Ryan你不怕吗？不怕女朋友去了国外认识其他很有能力给她幸福的人吗"我只是回答"我相信她，如果真的她认为那个人可以给她最好的生活最好的幸福。。我死而无憾"可能是自己自卑。成绩不好有没有一个好的前途都还是未知数..以前的我总是个花花公子这里一个过后没多久又再找一个..但至从遇见了她。。我的人生好像改变了。。英文不好的我。。努力强逼自己要把英文学好尤其是对话...所以之前做工的时候。。遇见老外我也可能和他们沟通。。所以很多说"wa~Ryan你的英文原来可以讲的那么好."我听了只是傻笑说"没有啦。。随便吹水的"

这几天看了书本才发现。。现在的我很喜欢拿书看书，原因是我发现。。。我现在很喜欢读书。该死的。。为什么之前高中的不肯努力读书！！！现在的我很后悔。。但已经不能改变了。。
我可能现在想法很简单。。就是可以让家人和我爱的人得到安全感。。觉得我可以负责一切。。
让他们有个依靠。。

上来KL后。。。花钱好像开水龙头一样。。。去做工交通费就花了我一大笔。。可是我还是会存钱起来。我最爱的妈妈每次我在没钱用都会给我钱。。但是我答应我自己。。。现在每个月我要帮家里减轻负担。

很开心这个月就是跟我的珊一起去Pulau Perhentian....一切让我觉得值得..

这里有些话要给我的宝贝珊

"BI..可能我有点小孩子吧有时候又很大人..原谅我的捉摸不定..快要2年了..很多时候你做小小的动作都可以让我很感动..如果有机会....我想....照顾你一辈子...等我有了能力。。。我会说。。"嫁给我方珊珊...."

Dear,i just can said ...." you are the apple of my eye"

I Love You...
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睡觉了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

还在烦恼。。交通问题。。haizzz...我要克服！！！

不知道的主题/12.13am Happy time 0831

今年不知道自己好不好运。。感觉自己很背吧。。。

心情低落的我现在真的很烦恼可是不知道自己烦恼些什么..

哈哈哈哈哈～突然心情好了！！！哈哈哈哈哈！！真的哦～突然感觉全身的力量都集中在一起了！！12.13AM就是这个时间！！我得到我最想要的连做梦都想着如果有这天就算死翘翘也值得！

明天我又代表johor Lazo去参加Fair了！这次我一定要做到最好...拿一个TOP Sales!

今年的我其实期望不是很大。。只是希望我在乎的人能够平平安安的心想事成就好了。。至于自己无所谓啦～只要看见在乎的人能够成功我就已经很开心了...可能我就是那么容易满足的人吧..只要小小的一句话就可以让我从地狱直接飞出来...

最近公司发生了点事情只是觉得无奈。为什么一个女生可以那样子的有了男朋友还可以跟其他的男生在放吃时间去搞。。厉害lo。。虽然全公司的人都很讨厌她啦。。只是他自己不知道还经常在我们面前说自己有多爱自己的男朋友。。事实上每个人都知道她的心态并不是这样的。。无奈。我还看过她男朋友人很好说话而且很好。。并不是她说的那样。几乎每天都跟不一样的男生。好想问他"你不会累吗？"

可能人大了想法也不一样了。很多事情列如爱情我看得很重。。可能我失去过现在拥有懂得珍惜,但是害怕太过爱了把女朋友吓跑。。其实我要的真的很简单只是小小的问候小小的安慰小小的鼓励。。我就可以好像会飞这样。。一个笑脸的符号对我来说好像给我在死之前给了我个强心针让我振作了起来。。我。。。失去工作无所谓我可以找过或者读书，但是失去了真的全心全意的人。。我可能不会再是我了。。。

所以只希望我公司的那个同事可以自爱咯。。。男朋友真的很好。。星期五到星期天几乎天天报道你要吃什么煮给你，你要他下着雨拿东西给你他都淋着雨来拿给你..只是希望你可以珍惜..虽然现在全部BPmall的人都知道你做的"好事"但是只要你肯改变自己还是一样会得到别人的尊重。。

我今天得到我最想要的一句话。。。就断断的一句话。。。。我。。。。活了过来。。。。。

明天会是一个美好的一天美好的开始。。因为你我会走下去让我的人生发光发热。。因为。。很简单。。。因为我就是爱你。。哈哈(你知道我在说你的0831)。。

OMG~~~~

OMG~~~i start working already...walao...i can't believe it!!!!

i working at Lazo Diamond ..1st day i go there very happy lo..because they staff not like before at KL there "宫心计" they all very care me..so i very happy lo..supervisor and very like chat with me lo...erm..and this Lazo diamond not manager just got supervisor only..=="and supervisor also is cashier =="erm ... well ...

Start working i think maybe they know many knowledge about the diamond and the white gold ...but..maybe they just working at Lazo diamond company so still not more about white gold and diamond knowledge ..so got ask me many thing...and they think i very pro ><"but..not my pro la..just i before at D&P company working so learn many thing at there lo..and D&P ofcouse specialized field lo..so i now working at Lazo i just know wow...D&P and Degem is very nice company..

haha i will working this company just only don't waste my time ...and waiting study only..so just do it...=="and today is working 2day so today my supervisor off day but she got call me and tell me boss want meet me><"pengzzz...2moro...because they before manager also got worked at D&P..so want meet me want tell me about my basic><" i think if they give me basic very low i maybe don't will do ....i change other job or go back KL find job or go back Degem better...

But i can said la..they all staff very nice la..maybe just me 1 male lo..so they all very take care me...and they know i know about diamond and white gold thing very much knowledge so they very care me..so. just see how 2moro lo..if they cannot give me i want welfare i don't take this job...but anywhere.. if i don't do le..also thx...thx the 2days take care with me...haha..

Give Me Power My Lover~~ha~~~~~~~ha~~~~~ha~~~ s~~~~ s~~=P

Unbelievable!!!!

Wow!!!Everyone !!! Unbelievable i will do this job><" not this job is join this company...

=.="OMG~let my before working at sungaiwang there D&P company know i go this company do they will kisiao =="but...nvm...do any company all same d la..i just want temporary do only ....so...haha ...

Today i go BPmall interview ...

1st i go there i very scare because i don't know how to ask about LAZO company..afther chat with ray...so i go try lo..><"pengzzz..so eazy can pass and can start working..maybe i got experience gua~erm...

why i will said let my before working there staff know i go do this company they will kisiao...because...this company reputation of a person or thing not nice...so...
but i think nvm la..i just go do temporary..just see how...because i feel i know about diamond knowledge better than they all..><"aiyo~cham not lanc>< but today i got ask something with her she also don't know how to give me a nice answer..

but this time i go there just do "SONGSONG" only la..good luck to me><"

Because i think they very hard mix in...haizzz..feel they will eat person=="

good luck to me...actually i very like before D&P d...but nvm la...haha time cannot return...

To cherish the memory of my...

To cherish the memory of my basketball..
Maybe the few days i watch Taiwan drama (籃球火)

So let me think back before i middle school everyday classes are over i make sure will remain at school play basketball..very funny..

We don't know why we like xiaokia can everyday play even is rain we also continue never said give up...now thinking before why we not too many vexation..

not same now ...maybe before just can said we are kids...now ....is adult..so..not same..

Longtime not take up my basketball and stand at basketball court...so, very miss and very wishful need can take up basketball and stand at basketball court and play 1 game.....

but i think maybe this is very hard ...

fui~~~~~because now at KL...not basketball not basketball court not ppl acc..so...haha...this is impossible..wow...in my memories i play basketball got 13year.and got year ago i haven play anymore...

Maybe....if let me take back i will playing better then before=="but impossible...

hahaha...this few days everyday in the evening i will go "BW"(floor) swimming pool swim...because i think is time i want to lose weight lo><" but i think i early need to think like this

haha..but now also don't will late ya...horhorhor...

Erm...2moro i want go find 1part time job do 1st and waiting MIAcollege open days and i want buy 1 laptop..so i think i want hardworking le...but...i think i need some support so hope u can at one's side at mine can bo.....haha is u33..give me some power and give me some hope...

NOW!!!!!!!JUST IS MY LIFE START!!!!!

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Interior design

Erm..Finally i find my interest ...erm...i know i very like design especially is Interior...

But I also very scare if finish Interior design couse hard to find job ><>

so finally to resolve my uncertanity and let me think very careful about "WHAT DO U WANT ?"

before i got tell many person i want study Mass Com because i don't know about this couse got what subject and all subject is my interest or not...so just now i just chat with my bro..finally i know this is not i want...

so...erm how will said i like interior design i just can said 1 word...."SONG" =="before i got see shanshan do assignment and do model i got help something so i very enjoy and at the moment i will thinking if this is my job i will very satisfy and sometime i got many strange idea ..haha..

erm...i choose 1 college already..MIA..my cousin before also study at this college...

and now i just waiting the college open days and i just can know more information...

HORHOR upload some interior design pic come here..very nice ^^"

This all pic is my search & download d...^^"wow...if can live like this hse i think all will very relax and enjoy right?